The Civics & Moral Ed exam has come and gone!

Which means, I have two days to prepare for my Geography and POA (paper 1). I have NOT done ANY stuff. Which means I am so dead...

As if that wasn't enough...

Remember last post, where I talked about God telling me to be forgiving and loving to others, esp. people from my family?

Sometimes, I feel really depressed. I mean, when someone likes a girl, you don't go out and steal her under his nose by having secret correspondence with her, especially when he's one of your best friends and that you already have a girlfriend.

It really hurts a lot, and a guy with almost zero self-esteem can be driven to kill himself, with the exams coming in as well. I've thought about dying quickly and then meeting God and being happy forever, where no one can hurt me, but no.

There are still people on this Earth whom I love but has not accepted Christ, and while they live, I will not lose the chance to bring the Light to them.

People who actually care, please pray for me. Its a tumultous period of time, when hearts are broken, spirits are poor and studies are bad for me.

By the way, people who actually bother to read my story, thank you. Please leave a review so that I can thank you nice and proper.

Perhaps I'll end with a prayer. Yes, that's it.

"Lord, I just want to thank you for the wonderful people who care about me, and bless them. Bless those who are taking their finals soon, and let them be promoted.

May my enemies be blessed as well, that they may come to believe in You or that they may become my brothers or sisters.

Whatever happens in my life in any part, whether love, studies or friendship is up to You, since I'm nothing more than a weak fool. God, forge me into a man that is worthy of the name "Joshua", whom you chose (and renamed) millenia ago. Thank you, Father

In Jesus' name I pray,

Amen."

josh fatesealer turned back time on 10/07/2003 01:31:00 am.