Tired, sleepy and emotionally drained...

Yup. An unhappi blog again **hears moans and groans**. While others have meaningless topics for their blogs and sum dun even update at all (IAN!EPH!TANG!You @$^%). Well, not really. Once again, I apologise to my readers(if there are ANY anyway...btw, if ya dere, tag me plsss!) for not blogging for such a loooooooooooooong time...its just that I've been too buzi and stressed these days.

First up, there was ze matter of my time commitments. Being the hols at tis point of time,all I do is play video/pc games now. I dun go out cuz: 1)I have no frens. No bestest ones anyway. 2) I dun know what to do when i'm out. 3) I have things at home, like tuition(sob!).

I have to manage my tuition hmwork(tho i dun do it at all), my responsiblility as the skit coordinator of Tacloban church trip(God! Motivate me!), my messed up feelings(Fine, its related to my heart, okay?), my lack of social life, blah blah and blah. Man...I suck.

Just came back from malaysia from Leader's Retreat. My grade for it? 3 out of 5. Three cuz it was fun while the going was good for me. Then I started getting paranoid about Ianny, Frammie, Sherie(is tat yr nick yr sis gave you?) and Mienie(sorry peeps!Must hav eaten sumthin wrong) and all, which means that I was constantly depressed, and to wrap it up, my asthma attacks came.

Guess when?

When my inhaler ran outta doses and all the 'farmasi'(malay pronoun for pharmacy) were closed. I was so totally screwed then. Plus, the phelgm i coughed up had streaks of blood(ouch!) in them...

But at least there were high points. Playing Smackdown! and trashing everyone at it, watching four guys go crazy trying to get a ball into the net(Winning Eleven),trying to explain to a gal why they were so crazy about that, getting a full dose of the Holy Spirit and speaking in tongues, getting seven pirated vcds and four pirated games(FFX-2,LOTR:RoTK,PES3/WE7,Celebrity Deathmatch) etc....

Back to the bad points. In church, I got hit by a few hard "punches" too. One was finding out that the New Youth Band was gonna split soon, and that we would require new people, and that three very impt ppl would be splitting soon. Either that, or I'm just paranoid.

Another was trying to decide whether I should dedicate time to learn the saxophone or not, especially since it would be taught by the conductor himself.

One last one was when I heard something that demoralised the heck outta me. Our deeearr tangster said it, by da way. Nvm I said that. Just ramblings of a sleep deprived teenager...:(

I'm going to Bali this week, and by the looks of it,I'm turned off. I dunno why, but I dislike going to foreign countries unless its: London or that I'm going with a whole bunch of frens. If ya want anything, tell me quick. I'll be gone this Friday.

I'm...too depressed, too sleepy, too tired to write more. Maybe next time. I guess.

Bye peeps. See you nex time...happier i hope.

josh fatesealer turned back time on 11/26/2003 02:07:00 am.