Wash me over...Wash me clean of my suffering

Oh God.

I need You here.

I need You now.

I need Your love.

Oh Lord.

Can you hear my cry?

My cry that rises to Your throne.

The cry of a broken man,

Pretending to be whole.

Jesus help me

To be whole again

To survive my own love

To be selfless, to be truly loving

To be a reflector of Your glory. And love.

In Thy unmatchable name I pray,

Amen.

~*~*~*~*~*~*


Not exactly a very good week...Already the first few days sucked...what's next?

I'm not gonna get my fone till like fridae, and I feel damn stupid for doing something I shouldn't have done.

You were right cousin....i feel like an idiot now. I wish I could make my feelings known, but then she'd feel tat I treat her like a toy won't she, Pris?

SIgh...ever since that day, I haven't been able to get her out of my mind. Man...she rocks my world. Literally. I was just sittting there when a particular memory of her came up and I swayed in my seat. Goshhh. Gals are evil...now I know...

She even came in my nightmares. God...that was horrible. It was like from me melting into a puddle of syrup into a total hell. With just a single sentence. Screwed up right?! And guess what? I cried in my sleep. For the first time ever, in my life, I wept in my sleep for a girl who doesn't even like me, much less love me, and yeah...Alright alright, stop with the "going crazy over a girl" thing again. I need no reminder Dickie, and I dun need you to call me a pyscho again...

Btw, Dickie's decided to give up blogging. No more "F***ing Headlines" huh? Lolx....

Anyway...I was doing fine at first...Kept her at the back of my mind, refusing to let her swamp my thoughts. Then that day came, and my mind was screwed over with again. Manx....That day, I called out to Jesus: "Lord, if you dun want her to be before you, why did you allow THAT to happen? Now I have to start all over again." Oh goshhh....

And then the teachers reminded me that it was only FIVE short months before my 'O's...Not prepared is an understatement. How about oblivious? Argghh...Life seems that suck more and more. Lolx...yet i shall rejoice in the joy of the Lord...Difficult, but I shall try...

Father, I'm not exactly happy with my situation right now. I know I can't change it, nor do I need to ask you for help(since I'm already in Your arms) but I pray that You'll let me recognise Your presence in those who would encourage me. Christ, I believe you must have gone through this route before...I mean, when you were also in Your teens and you had not gone about Your Father's business yet. I ask that You let Your love and grace come upon me ever more, for this is quite a bad period of time, for Your love satisfies all my needs. Holy Spirit, the Son sent You as a counsellor to me, and I plead for Your wisdom and humility to see this through.

I also seem to have no frens...not many true ones anyhow...Also feel like joining back choir...but I'm in ELDDs liao, so...Now dun get me wrong. The only reason why I want to join choir is because I need to improve my vocals. There have been a few ppl who's said that my voice is worse than a certain ang moh kid whom I think has an average singing voice. WHich means I'm below average. WHich means I suck. Which means I'm pretty much good-for-nothing. Bleahs. I sux.

...If I suck, why am I even singing anyway? Hah. Dun sing I guess. Oh, this sunday got no Youth Service...which means Im not singing. Yayness...

HOLD. Anything that I do for Him, CANNOT be sucky. Therefore, I shall henceforth talk cock. Lolx.

WAIT. Where did tat come from? Man...sheryl...You have altered my mental state...Im siaoded. Lolx!

Hhahahaa! "For though I walk throught the valley of the shadow of death, I shall not fear, for Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me."

Oh yeah. Warrior for God coming through! **swings sword and cuts through Competitor One accidentally** Lolx!

Goshh...I'm going MAD! I'm going KERAZEEE!!!! I'M BECOMING SIAODED!?!?!

Hahhaha! Rejoice in the joy of the Lord always! Amen, Amen, and RAMEN!

...Ramen? oops.

My parent's cell group in my house. Now praying in tongues. Know what? I feel comforted by that. Hee~

Thank you, Lord. Thank you Sooooo000OOOOOOoooo much.

**Muackz** Thanks God!

josh fatesealer turned back time on 3/31/2004 06:11:00 pm.